Just post.

Long time, no post.

Long story short, it is a mix of my job taking me away from internet and me being lazy.

I have a huge problem of always wanting something to be perfect, or wanting to be good at something right away, whether that be making YouTube videos, playing the piano, dancing, etc. The fear of failure or looking stupid always holds me back and is my biggest enemy. Well I fell down #hopetok (I believe it is called, but basically it is all motivational TikTok) today and one of the videos I saw, said to just post something, regardless of how bad it is, as long as it is authentic. That coupled with a quote I heard this week from a class I am in said “you are not here to be perfect, you are here to get better” really resonated with me today. So to sound all cliche, failure is when you don’t get back up, failure is laying in bed and staring at my phone instead of bettering myself, failure is letting my demons win. So I went for a small walk, just to get some steps in, then I made YouTube short, then I went to Walmart and got a kettlebell, then I did the thing I hate most… worked out!

So today is a great day. I am alive. I put one foot in front of the other. I posted.

For those out there suffering in silence, keep fighting those inner demons, we don’t quit out here! I am here if you want to talk.

Be kind. Peace. ✌🏼